Time for a recharge

I’ve been running on fumes since December. I kept telling myself that I’ll take some time off when things slow down in January, but I’m sitting here mid-January and so far it’s been another busy 2 weeks of work.

Sometimes you need to hit rock bottom to realize things and unfortunately that’s what happened to me yesterday. I woke up exhausted and just generally negative about everything. I struggled through the day with some tough anxiety.

Simple tasks were just much more difficult and it was hard to focus for long periods of time. My run that serves as a stress killer and quick fix ended up being the most I’ve struggled in a run in months. Rock bottom indeed.

The toll of a newborn along with a stressful job doesn’t make things easy. Being a first time father adds fuel to the fire. Going forward, I know I need to do a better job managing my time and schedule. It’s just not sustainable to do what I used to pre-kid anymore.

For now, I’m going to take the rest of the week off after tomorrow morning. And possibly some time next week as well. There may not be a better time given things are slow and I need to take advantage versus creating more work for myself to stay busy.

It’s time for a recharge. I’ll be a better Dad, husband, and colleague once I do.