Week off thoughts

I’ve had a great 4.5 days off this week. It was exactly what I needed to get my physical and mental health back to a good spot before a hectic month ahead. Most of February and March were particularly brutal for me with Colin combined with everything happening at work. I let myself get to a really bad state and I’m not proud of it.

On this past week - I spent most of the weekdays just relaxing. I laid in bed a lot on Tuesday. I ran errands with Sophia on Wednesday. I went to the spa on Thursday and relaxed for two hours before grabbing a nice lunch by myself. I played 9 holes of golf and got a nice lunch on Friday. I needed a lot of time to myself and I did just that.

I’m not happy to report that I did think a lot about work during the week. Sitting in the hot tub and the only thing going through my mind was work at times. I felt like slapping myself a few times.

This week has made me realize that I let my work seep into every other area of my life way too much. The stress of the last month came home with me, went to bed with me, and woke up with me. It consumed me nearly 24/7. I lost being present with Colin when I had time with him. I lost sleep thinking about work in bed.

It’s an awful habit and I’m ready to put that behind me. Work will be work. And I need to put better guard rails up to make sure I’m present. There’s only so many hours in the day and I need to start accepting that I don’t have the hours I used to prior to having a kid. If I don’t make changes, I’ll keep running into this issue of burnout which helps no one.

Tomorrow it’s back to work, but the main thing I want to make sure I do this month is start putting those guardrails back up between work and personal.