Hello from Amsterdam

I arrived in Amsterdam this morning and I am absolutely beat from the travel. The flight from SF to Amsterdam is a brutal 9.5 hour trek that departs at 2:35 PM PST and ends at 9:45 AM CET. You basically fly all afternoon and land right when your body is telling you to go to sleep. It’s brutal.

I’m running on perhaps a 2 hour nap, but I am trying to stay positive and make it to a reasonable hour to pass out. I wish there were some easy fixes for jet lag. Perhaps next time I’ll start looking at some medication to help with falling asleep for the entire 9 hour flight.

Onwards…

I had a fantastic meditation the other morning. It’s hard to describe the feeling when you hit that perfect meditation but it’s somewhat of an out of body experience. You are one with the meditation and feel as if you are almost hallucinating.

It’s an awesome byproduct of meditation when it happens. Many that begin meditating seek these experiences and unfortunately for them, that’s not how this works.

When you meditate, you know the practice is working in your life when mindfulness shows up when you are not meditating. The more and more you practice, the more you realize how much of an affect meditation has in your everyday life. Practicing trains your brain to be more aware and awake in all situations.

Meditation is a practice. One that you must dedicate time in order to reap the benefits. The benefits start to show up when you are not meditating. If you deepen your practice enough, you may be able to start realizing some of the benefits during the meditation as well.

2020 and bang!

What a start to the year. On the first day of trading of 2020, the S&P 500 is up 0.9% and the Nasdaq is up 1.33%. Hopefully this is a sign of the year to come, but as always, what comes up must come down…. eventually.

As mentioned previously, I’m going to stick to my guns and ride the wave conservatively. I’m going to be looking to grow my position in couple value stocks in my portfolio in the coming weeks. I am kicking myself a bit for not doing this in November, but that is the life of investing.

While stocks have been on a tear, crypto has relatively quietly been on a downward slope since the spike mid last year. While crypto coin prices may not reflect this, blockchain has been trending towards acceptance at a rapid pace. The adoption has been much slower than crypto fans would like, but decentralization is the future and there is a great argument for an allocation of crypto in your portfolio.

I am unsure whether I am going to add more Bitcoin or Ethereum to my portfolio in the near future. I am going to do more reading and take a wait and see approach with the current market before pulling any triggers.

2020 Goal Setting

Happy New Years. I spent the last week in Lake Tahoe and came back right on NYE. I was in bed by 1am after binge watching Kevin Hart’s Netflix show about his life.

Onwards…

I don’t really believe in New Year’s resolutions. I’m more of a New Year’s goals guy. I think resolutions are a bit more binary than goals. It’s like you hold your resolution or you fail in keeping it. This is why I’m more focused on goals and things I’d like to achieve or get better at during 2020. Even if you’re not perfect with these goals, you can still be successful.

I’m writing down my goals and planning on doing monthly check-ins to this list to hold myself accountable and track progress.

  1. Continue to deepen my meditation practice including meditating more on weekends and on vacation

  2. Develop a habit of writing daily even if it’s a sentence long

  3. Eat more vegetables and less bad carbs

  4. Make learning about markets a priority and catch up on activity at least weekly

  5. Develop better email/work and home/leisure habits

I’ll aim to do a monthly check-in on the last day of the month. Looking forward to making 2020 my best year yet.

Merry Christmas

The holidays have historically been a bit weird for me. I think it’s a mixture of having a less traditional family and having seemingly all bad events in my life happen in December. The last few years have really come around for me though and my holiday cheer is at all time highs and growing every year.

A large part of this is maturity on my end. I’m at the point of my life where I’ve learned that the holidays are about sharing these finite and precious moments with family and friends. Just like my life, my family is imperfect and I wouldn’t want it any other way.

One year since "ample liquidity"

What a year (plus one day) it has been since Secretary of the Treasury Steve Mnuchin tweeted that he spoke to the CEOs of the 6 largest banks and confirmed that they all had ample liquidity. For those that don’t remember, Mnuchin seems to have tweeted reassurance on a non-existent liquidity crisis.

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The low point was close on 12/24. The markets began to rally on 12/26 and despite a few dips, it never looked back hitting all time highs 33 times in 2019.

I recall conversations a year ago at this time to be very ominous and it was hard not to be. Yet here we are standing on Christmas Eve at all time highs despite a President impeached and political strife.

All signs and charts that I have been reading are pointing towards the bull market continuing in 2020. I’m going to remain cautiously optimistic as I continue to invest. When all signs point one way, this market seems to do the opposite.

Future of food

It’s always a bit weird being back home at my parent’s house. I sleep so well here and end up sleeping in almost every morning. This can probably be attributed to the fact that it’s the holidays and the cozy factor of being home, but it’s a perfect place to recharge.

Onwards…

One trend I am particularly interested in is the future of food. Part of this is personal as I am a huge foodie that probably spends the majority of my personal time thinking about food. However, I am very interested in this field as an investor as well.

As the world’s population continues to grow exponentially, humans (and animals) will need to find ways to feed themselves through sustainable methods. This is a growing problem and the food industry is one that is ripe for disruption.

We have seen the first stage of this with artificial meat companies such as Beyond Meat and Impossible Foods, and I am interested to see it taken one step further with lab grown meat. While interesting, I don’t believe the science is there yet and the cost of producing artificial meat is still too high to make this an alternative to feed anyone but first world countries.

Two alternatives that I have particularly gotten interested in is kelp and soil.

I want to write more about kelp in another post, so I will keep this short, but it is a very nutritious green that grows quickly and actually has negative carbon emission as it removes carbon from the oceans. It requires no fresh water, no feed, and no fertilizer to grow. In short, it’s a super food that is as sustainable as it gets.

Soil is something I have grown to be interested in recently. I don’t need to explain why soil is important for food, but one trend I am interested in following is the advancement of soil so our crops can grow faster and more organically.

I met up with a high school friend a couple days ago and he has recently transitioned from running a marijuana grow-op into a soil start-up. Without divulging his secret sauce, his company’s soil has resulted in better output for California’s marijuana business. I would like to see this expand and see the science behind “super soil”.

If we want to make sure our children and grandchildren enjoy their lives like we have, we have a duty to contribute to sustainability and the future of food.

I am unsure what my plans after Secfi will be. I enjoy what I do at the moment, but the future of food is one I will be following closely.

Childlike curiosity

I’ve got to spend a lot of time with my little 8 year old sister Cali since I’ve been home. We’ve had a lot of fun together, but being around her makes me realize how I am just not ready to have children yet.

Kids are equal parts rewarding and exhausting all at the same time. Like many 8 year olds, Cali has undying energy and does not stop asking questions.

I am amazed by how curious she is about seemingly everything in life. One minute she may be asking a math question and literally 10 seconds later will start asking me about Lake Tahoe. As annoying as this can be, I can only sit and smile as I can only imagine what I was like as a child.

While I am tapped out on answering questions, we can all learn from Cali and look to channel our inner childhood curiosity in everyday life. One of life’s privileges is the ability to learn and be curious and I plan to do more of that going forward.

When things go south with stock options

I am back home at my parent’s house for a few days. Although my apartment is only about a 25 minute drive on the other side of the city, I think there’s something really therapeutic about coming “home”. So I packed up a bag and my cat and had my dad pick me up. Never too old to get picked up by your parents.

Last night, I spent a lot of time reading this tweet thread by Eric Paley about stock options. The series of tweets focuses on better communicating stock option packages to current and future employees. I agree with the message Eric is sending here.

At Secfi, we focus on helping employees maximize the value of their equity compensation. I spend my day to day speaking and advising clients and I can say that stock options are brutally confusing.

Explaining the implications of options in an upside scenario is relatively straight forward. If everything goes well, you want to exercise as early as possible to maximize your equity.

The hard part of course is what happens when things don’t go as well as planned. From a tax perspective, this can lead to a disastrous situation. A simplified example below:

Let’s say an employee joins a start-up and is granted stock options in year 1. The options begin to vest in year 2 and the company is on a great growth trajectory. Everything is going well and the employee’s stock option package has appreciated significantly.

In year 3, an employee decides to pony up the cash to exercise their option grant so they can save on taxes and take more home in the future. Although the strike price is low, the employee is likely going to pay a pretty penny in alternative minimum tax due to the increased 409A due to growth of the company.

Year 5 and things are headed south. The company goes bankrupt and the employee’s shares are worthless. The employee has lost the money paid to the company for the exercise cost. In addition, the employee has paid taxes on the appreciation of the stock. The cash received back for the shares is zilch so employee is in the hole all that cash.

Logically, you might think that the employee will at least have some tax relief here. An employee paid taxes on an artificial gain and received nothing back which means they’re at a loss. Not so fast.

Due to the complicated AMT loss limitations, the employee’s tax benefit is going to be severely limited. That AMT the employee paid may be recovered in the future, but depending on how the numbers shake out, this could take many years sometimes beyond one’s foreseeable lifetime.

This is the nightmare scenario with stock options. An employee pays money out of pocket to exercise the options and pay taxes, receives nothing back for the stock, and then is only able to recover the tax paid over the course of many years.

This was such a big issue that Congress enacted the American Taxpayer Relief Act of 2012 so those in these situations would be able to recover those taxes paid instantly. Unfortunately, those regulations still allow for this nightmare scenario to happen today although the Trump Tax Cuts did reduce this AMT burden.

Unfortunately for employers and employees, this is one of the harsh realities of stock options and something that is not easily explained and therefore quite often overlook.

Alone time

Sophia is gone to visit her family for Christmas and most of my friends are headed back to their hometowns as well.

Things are really quiet at my apartment. For the first time in a while, I am sitting here on a Friday afternoon with no plans or idea of what I’m going to do. I am very excited.

I used to be someone who didn’t like being alone. I felt that I always needed the validation of being around friends, but as I grew older, I started to enjoy being by myself and focused on myself.

I started doing solo Sundays often eating lunch or dinner at restaurants by myself. I walked and explored new cities. I learned the importance of enjoying being by myself with my own thoughts.

When you are alone, you learn a lot about yourself which includes the good, the bad, and the ugly. But most importantly, you learn how to love yourself and be independent.

Alone time became harder to come by after Sophia moved in. That’s okay and part of being in a committed relationship. I do miss her a lot and wish she was here, but I also realize that this is an opportunity for me to be selfish and do me things.

Back at it

I took a week off from writing due to travel and the year-end rush at work. As I mentioned previously, I want to get more consistent in my daily writing, but it’s proven much more difficult than I expected. Anytime I log onto my computer, I have this sudden urge to check my email and get work done. It’s a terrible habit and I hope to nip that in the bud starting in 2020.

Onwards…

I spent last Thursday through Monday visiting my college friend Matt and his wife Annika in Honolulu and the North Shore. A bunch of old college friends also came and it was a mini-college reunion.

We rented a house on the North Shore with private beach access and a large yard. We hadn’t gotten this entire crew together since we all left college in 2012. We’ve all grown up quite a bit, but deep down, we’re all the same people and it felt like nothing had changed between us.

It was great to unwind a bit and just relax on a gorgeous island. I love Hawaii. I love the culture, the food, and the people. The Hawaiians are the best at being relaxed and enjoying the present moment. We could all learn a thing or two from them.

I am looking forward to taking most of the next two weeks off from work to unwind and write in more detail. The next week will be a big week for me to reflect on 2019 and set personal goals for myself in 2020. I look forward to sharing that on this blog.

The ebb and flow of investing

I lost a lot of money today as Alteryx stock dropped 8.55% to $99. Thus is the life of investing the stock market.

By no means am I downplaying this loss, but this is the game we play and you must be able to sustain these blows to reap the benefits.

I have been invested in Alteryx since $16 and have been slowly building my position over the last few years. The company has healthy financials and growth, beating expectations nearly every quarter since the company has gone public.

There was no negative news today from the company. I’m not sure why the drop happened, but the likely explanation is that this is a pullback on SaaS stock and $AYX, which has been a stock market darling, took the brunt end of it.

The stock is highly volatile with a 52-week low of $48 and a high of $147. While the company is health and the product is amazing, it’s easy to point to the fact that the company may be overvalued while trading at a P/E of 571.

I have no plans to pull back on my current position. My long-term thesis on the company has stayed the same. I believe the room for self-service data and analytics tools will continue to grow to bridge the gap between the generations of non-coders and the generation where coding is ubiquitous and taught in all schools.

To reap the benefits of the future growth, you’ll need the cajones to hold on and power through days like today.

It doesn't get better, you get better.

Life works out funny sometimes. I had a very relaxing weekend where I made sure to catch up on sleep and recharge. I woke up Monday feeling great. Starting around 4pm, I could feel something was not right. The rest of my evening was spent on my couch with a fever and what I think is some sort of stomach bug. By 10pm, everything seemed to have past and I felt fine.

It was a hellish 5 hours where I was really struggling, but happy to report that I feel much better today. Onwards…

“Listen. I wish I could tell you it gets better. But, it doesn’t get better. You get better.” -Joan Rivers

This quote came up during my meditation on Monday and it really resonated with me.

We all go through difficult and stressful times where we bound up and just want to escape. There’s many times where I wish I could revert back to childhood where there was no stress and things were easy, but that’s not how life works.

The beauty behind life is that each of these experiences builds character and resiliency. We may not noticed it, but through each time we’re going to through hell, we get better and better.

Life does not get easier, but we get better at life.

Celebrating Wins

I’ve had a hell of a week getting caught up after Thanksgiving break. There were some long hours in the office this week and I’m exhausted.

Reflecting back on the week, I realized I was so busy that I didn’t notice how much progress and success the team had this week.

It’s sometimes easy to focus on the next thing, but it’s really important to celebrate your accomplishments and wins. You’ve got to enjoy the journey or it’s just not worth it.

As I write this, I’m enjoying a beer and looking forward to celebrating some more with the team.

Chris Petersen - What you do is who you are

I started reading Ben Horowitz’s new book, What You Do Is Who You Are this past week. I am only through maybe the first 8% of the book, but the it’s been fantastic so far.

I’ll report back once I’ve finished and give a full review, but the title of the book is pretty self explanatory. Your company’s culture is defined by what you do.

Chris Petersen was a successful football coach because of many reasons, but I would argue that the culture he cultivated on and off the field was the biggest contributor to success. He lived by this mantra and sought to create a culture where team always came first.

Coach Pete was always focused on team unity and building. From walk-on to 5 star recruit, everyone on the team was family and had a place. Knowing someone’s name was just as important as being able to make a block, and Petersen lived that by forcing the team to participate in name games.

He ensured that locker room was kept neat and tidy at all times, not by forcing janitors to clean, but by picking up trash himself.

An individual was never bigger than the team and he lived that when he kicked off star player and now NFL pro bowler, Marcus Peters, off the team his first year as head coach.

Watching the evolution of the culture that Petersen was setting was a thing of beauty as a husky fan. Since he took over in 2013, the team just kept on getting better every year. We made 3 New Year’s Six bowl games in a row from 2016 - 2018 including the College Football Playoff in 2016.

Your culture is created by what you do. Chris Petersen lived this day in and day out and created a team culture that won big on and off the field.

Chris Petersen and Burnout

I’ve been fighting to keep my head above water after the Thanksgiving break. I’m buried in to-dos, meetings, emails, and new employee trainings.

It’s been interesting to see how my writing and habits suffer during these stressful times. I missed a blog post yesterday and I just reread my last post from the day before. It was clear my mind was elsewhere and I was fighting to get words down.

It’s not rocket science that people typically do their best work when they’re in good mental states.

The news of Chris Petersen stepping down as head coach of the University of Washington football team may be a perfect example of this. The Huskies were coming off their worst year in the last 3 years and this season is arguably Petersen’s most disappointing one given the talent on the team.

Coach Pete cited that he needed a break from football. It was clear that the toll of being a football coach for the last 30+ years really hit him.

There’s many reasons why the Huskies underachieved this year, but it’s hard to imagine that a burnt out head coach wasn’t one of the reasons. The season took a toll on Petersen and he no longer had the energy.

I look forward to writing more about Chris Petersen, his program, and legacy as there’s so many parallels to draw in the business world. He was an amazing coach, individual, and leader. I couldn’t imagine a better person to lead my alma mater’s team for the past 6 years.

Week of Gratitude and Travel

Finally getting caught up with everything after trying to take most of last week off. I did a pretty good job at not working and truly taking time to unwind. Unfortunately, my daily blogging suffered as well but I can live with that.

To cap off last week, today I am grateful for the amazing Delta gate agent at Salt Lake City airport. We had an early morning flight from Baltimore for a quick one hour layover in Salt Lake before flying to San Francisco. When we landed, we found out that our flight was delayed 2+ hours (and likely more) due to bad weather in SF.

We were down in the dumps when we noticed there was a flight to Oakland leaving soon and decided to see if there was someway we could get on this flight. We asked this “gate angel” and he put Sophia and I on the flight with no hesitation. He even upgraded us to Comfort+ and worked to get my checked bag onto the right flight.

It’s safe to assume that this gate agent probably has had a few long days working one of the busiest airports in the busiest time of the year, but he was amazing the entire way. Yes, he was just doing his job, but it’s these little things that we remember. He literally made our day and gives me another reason for staying loyal to Delta.

Be nice, be helpful, be empathetic. These are simple things we hear all the time, but goes such a long way when put into action correctly. I hope to take this gate agent’s customer service basics into my everyday life.

Ask Why

“Not wanting something is as good as having it” -Naval Ravikant

Today I am grateful for having everything I need in life. It’s easy to get carried away with Black Friday and excessive consumerism around this time of the year, but it’s important to get grounded and be truly grateful for everything we have, which is more than enough.

Onwards…

Ever since I was young, I have always been a very curious. I probably pissed off my parents by always asking “why” to every answer.

Thankfully nowadays we have the internet for answers which wasn’t as accessible when I was a child.

It’s really important for us to always question why something is the way it is. Using the answer, “that’s just how it is” or “that’s what I was told” is a terrible way to think about things.

Those are the easy responses for when you do not want to think critically. When you respond that way, you are borrowing someone else’s thoughts, not forming your own.

The greatest innovators in the world question why something exists the way it does. So the next time someone tells you to do something, maybe you should question it and ask why it’s done that way. You might have the next billion dollar start-up idea.

Travel Security

Today I am grateful for having a roof over my head on this rainy day. Unfortunately, not everyone will have that luxury on this cold and rainy evening in San Francisco.

I am headed to Baltimore tomorrow morning to spend Thanksgiving with Sophia’s family. We have a really early morning flight at 6am so I’m optimistic that we’ll get out on time on one of the worst travel days of the year.

Not surprisingly, I have a little bit of travel anxiety thinking about the potential travel nightmare that’s in front of us.

I look forward to the day where security lines are streamlined.

I recently spoke to the founder of a start-up that’s working to create a blockchain identity platform which individuals can use to verify their identity.

While I think we’re still far out from implementing this in real transactions such as the airport, these kind of applications of blockchain technology is what excites me.

Imagine airports where a simple scan of the face will verify your identity and flight details within seconds and there are no more TSA agents checking your ID one by one.

Gratitude

In honor of Thanksgiving, I wanted to write one thing I’m grateful for everyday this week.

Today, I am grateful for the ability to travel and experience different cultures. I booked a flight to Seoul and Tokyo in March. I am unbelievable lucky to be in a position to travel and see the world and it’s something I never want to take for granted.

On to the topic of gratitude…

It’s a shame that many people don’t understand the power of gratitude. The mere thought of being grateful for what you have rather than focusing on what you don’t have is a hard thought to come by.

We’re all guilty of wanting more in life whether that’s material goods, money, another job, or relationships. This is why practicing gratitude is so important. It’s easy to go through life focusing on wanting when true happiness comes from what you already have.

If you’ve gotten to experience a day on earth today, you are already very lucky. Don’t forget that.

Talent and Coaching

My Washington Huskies fell to 6-5 on the year last night after losing to the Colorado Buffaloes in Boulder. On paper, this is a game that we had no business of losing but has unfortunately been the trend this year with brutal losses to Cal, Stanford, and Colorado.

We are undoubtedly much more talented than Colorado with a quarterback that will be drafted in the first round as well as NFL talent surrounding him. It’s hard to see more than a couple Colorado players ending up in the NFL in the next few years.

This year has been the worst year for a Christ Petersen led team by far. We’ve wasted a lot of talent that will play at the next level and the blame solely falls on the coaches. Yes, execution is a large part of it and maybe the players this year are missing the “it” factor, but a team this talented losing 5 games including 3 to much inferior opponents falls squarely on the coaching and recruiting misses.

Just like in football as in business, all the talent in the world without the teamwork and leadership does not often lead to success. Superior talent can masks large holes and deficiencies, but eventually will be exposed.

It’s a harsh lesson and reality that I want to always remind myself as I help build out Secfi. In many cases, training, culture, and leadership will outweigh pure talent and intelligence.

Just like last night when a team full of 4* and 5* recruits couldn’t beat a team full of 2* and 3* recruits, a team of the smartest people in the world with poor guidance cannot beat a high performing team with tremendous leadership.